Why is meditation so hard?

I’m no expert when it comes to meditation.  In fact I used to avoid it like the plague.  Much to my annoyance, it used to keep popping up in my kinesiology balances as something I needed to do.   I had many excuses as to why it couldn’t happen “I don’t have enough time”, “it’s impossible with my children”, “I’d have to get up at 5 a.m. and I’m not a morning person!”.  So I never did it. And as a result, my life continued to be chaotic and stressful and I was constantly irritable, angry, unfocused and it didn’t take much to make me fly off the handle.  It wasn’t much fun….not surprisingly I wasn’t much fun to be around either.

 

Kinesiology has been fantastic for helping me cope with stress, but avoiding the recommendation to start meditation was basically erasing all the good work of the kinesiologist and not doing me any favours.  (It’s a bit like going on a weekend retreat to detox and then returning home to all your bad habits…benefits are short lived).  So, it was time to implement change!

 

My first few meditation sessions were far from perfect; my mind would mull over a million and one things, or  I’d doze off, or I’d be restless throughout the process.  Yet despite this, I still felt good after each attempt.   I only ever tried to meditate for 15-20 minutes and I found I quite enjoyed these little mini-meditations.  I looked forward to them and relied on them for some much needed ‘time out’.  My sleep also improved. I was sleeping more deeply and waking more refreshed.

 

I also found that I needed to meditate to music.  I am a fan of Tom Kenyon and his unique and unusual healing sounds*.  I found that if I played his music in the background it gave my busy mind a focus and it helped me get into the meditation ‘zone’.

 

I can’t say I’ve turned into a serene yogi (not yet anyway), but I am definitely calmer about life and nicer to be around.  If I try to skip a meditation (or a couple) then things begin to go haywire for me again and I know I need to get back into my routine!

 

I’m not suggesting everyone should meditate but I find it fascinating that it comes up so often for my kinesiology clients.  Many of us live busy, stressful lives and often don’t make the time to switch off mentally and physically. Sometimes the idea of fitting another activity into our already jam-packed  lives seems impossible.  But, if you feel your life is a little crazy; you’re overly stressed, irritable, unable to handle life’s little upsets, then maybe meditation might be something worth considering?

 

*Tom Kenyon is a sound healer.  He offers many of his healing sounds for free on his website.  His sounds won’t be to everyone’s liking but I find his music powerful and have experienced dramatic shifts / insights. http://tomkenyon.com/